Thursday, February 28, 2013

Bind My Wandering Heart To Thee

Come Thou Fount-
One of my favorite songs!  I remember in college we would have YL leadership in the Area Director's basement singing this song!  There would be a fire going (as it was probably snowing or FREEZING outside since it was Tech) with all of my closest friends belting out this song.
I saw on pinterest (of course) that someone put this on old boards above their bed.
What a great idea?

I needed something above my bed and what a better thing to sleep below.
Bind my wandering heart to Thee is surrounded by these verses.
Here it is:
So to grace, how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be
And let They goodness like a fetter
Bind my wandering heart to Thee

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, Lord take and seal it
Seal it for Thy courts above

What a powerful song.  Let thy goodness-  that is so much greater and as I am so undeserving - Bind my heart to the God I am so prone to wander from. But I want badly to be bound and scripture says I am sealed with Jesus.  So this is my prayer that hangs above my head.  As I end each day and begin each day this will be my prayer.  That the God that is so gracious to a huge debtor like myself, will continue to bind my wandering heart to Him!

And its made with an old pallet I found at my parents house- that makes it even more fun.  Not only cause I am in love with pallets currently- but its old, torn down and doesn't seem to have a purpose- but sweet words of Jesus' purpose are painted on top.

Whats a project without some pics of the final project.

I had to get my brother to break apart the boards from the pallet.  I don't know how people say they can do that themselves.  I had the hardest time with it- thats when I brought in a boy- he got it done.
The I cleaned them up.
Added some boards on the back that connected the boards- I wanted them to be a little off balance and uneven- I mean thats my life too!!
Then I used my friend Meg's cricket to paint on the words to the top.

Monday, February 25, 2013

How long....

Someone read/played this song for me a couple of weeks ago. It was so good. Not only is it a beautifully performed song but a beautifully written. The band is lowland hum. You can visit their website Here. They have free downloads. Yes.

Here is the you tube video if the song.

The words are:
How long
 O my God how long 
How long
Until I see you
My bones ache
You know my hearts awake
So how long
Until I see you

She saw a rose and it won't let her go
They asked me, "where have you been and where are you going?"
I build cathedrals in the hearts of the people that I know

Waiting for mount Zion. 

Check out their website. They have other really great songs. 
Guess old better take off my shoes is also good :)

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Buttons have taken over my life!

My dear friend Leanne taught me how to made fabric buttons.
Some people may know about the flat back button phenomena but I was not one of those people.  
And since I have learned it has literally taken over TV watching time.  It is great!  
I am always in need of little presents here and there- and with these I will have some in stock.  Always. No waiting on etsy or going to a boutique.  But making them myself.

I am going to pass the secret along to you.
Again some of you may already know about these.  If so, sorry for boring you.
If not...
here you go.

You need:
glue-don't use hot glue.  That wears off.  Use E6000 glue- it is stronger and doesn't wear off. 
Earring backs- you can buy those at Michael's or Hobby Lobby
flat back buttons- Just go to etsy and search Covered button flat back kits.  You will need the kit because it helps you.  In future orders you can just order the button flat back.  I got 5/8 inch and 3/4 inch.  Small and big.  Your size is up to you.  
This is what they look like.  Silver- buttons and flat back
blue- helps you push flat back in
Clear- helps you get the fabric straight.

Scraps of fabric.  That is the great thing about these.  You DON'T have to buy fabric.  You know all that fabric that is leftover from other projects that you don't know what to do with?
Use it for buttons.
Cheap- love it!
Here you go.
Pick what fabric you want to use and section you want to use.  You want to make both earrings as similar as possible.  So pick a part of the fabric that is replicated in multiple spots.

Take your fabric and the button.
Wrap it around the button and push it in the clear part.  Then cut off the extra fabric.
Try to get the fabric as smooth as possible and get out the folds.  

Take the flat back and flatten it in the clear part.  This will hid the rest of the fabric.  You can use the blue tool to push the flat back in place.  You should feel it snap.  

Then you have your button!!!  Enjoy and make gifts!
You just add the backs with the special glue.
And give them to your friends!!
You can make them while watching how I met your mother.. like I do :)!

wear them all around.  Its a great addition to a plain outfit.  

Monday, February 18, 2013


I am running a half marathon.  
WHATTT..... never thought I would say that.
I have never been a runner.  I have been a biker, dancer, weight lifter (paha), zumba dancer, pilates goer, p90x lover and other things.
But never a runner.
WHY am I doing this!
Well for starters its exercise, thats good.
But also I feel like so many times I have these goals at the beginning of the year and they never happen.  I wanted that to change a bit.
I have a goal to spend time with Jesus in the mornings- I am not a morning person(working on it)
I have a goal to blog more this year.
To take more pictures.
And to run a half marathon.
I added the half marathon because I thought it was a goal that I could mark progress and check off the list in hopefully 12 weeks.
So now its happening.  And I have brought others on the ride with me.
My friend Ashley, who has a great blog (here), has done a half marathon before.  So she's doing it with me.
Then I convinced my brother to do it with me.  He went on my 4 mile run with me and was totally fine (guys).  It's been fun having him train with me, because it means we talk and check in a lot more.  As you know most of my family live an hour from me- so it kind of keeps us a little more connected.  And you also know i LOVE my family- so that makes me happy.

But now here we are.  
7 weeks away.
AHHHH im nervous.
But excited!

Want to join me?

Here is a pic of me after my 5 mile run a couple of weeks ago.  I was sooooo excited because that was the longest run I had ever done at that time.  
Thats my excited face.

Also here is a link to my training..... just in case you want to do it with me (here).  I am going to do another one in September.  This one is basically just a way to get me training and doing it now.
But the September one is supposed to be super fun!!
I'll let you know how it goes!!

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

#1000 gifts

Have you read the book 1000 gifts?
It is amazing.  Changed my life. 
One, it is an amazing story.  Two, this lady loves Jesus in such a beautiful way.
She had a lot of difficult things happen in her life that could have made her bitter or angry.  Instead she became thankful.  She wrote a list every day of things that she was thankful for.  She talks about having a heart of gratitude, even on the days that is the last thing you want.
It really has changed my life.  When I start having a pity party or believing lies about my life I write out a list of gifts.  What am I thankful for?  It changes my whole perspective.  We really have so much to be thankful for.  Especially when we think about everything that is going on in our world.  Me, living in a nice apartment, with a job, and food on the table.  Not to mention living in America in general.  I have lots to be thankful for.  But that is just the tip of the iceberg.  There are so many other things I have to be thankful for. 
The other night I had a bad night.  You know how those go.  Start to feel upset about something, believing something that isn't true.  So I sat up to journal with Jesus for a while.  Read some scripture.  Sent some emails to friends to ask them to pray for my heart.  Then I wrote a thankful list. 
I woke up a completely different person.  Jesus is so good!  He listens and hears me in my bratty moments.  The times that I am complaining about everything under the sun.  He comforts me, loves me and then he redirects me.  He reminds me of his promises along with showing me how gracious He has already been!
He's really the best.  Well I thought I'd share a little of my list with you.

What are you thankful for?  Think of your 1000 gifts today!

Also she has an awesome blog.  Click here to see it! 

Monday, February 11, 2013

Whatever is....

What our thoughts are has been on my heart a lot recently.  
When I was in college a friend of mine, Erika, and I decided that we wanted to memorize the passage in 2 Corinthians 10- "Take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ Jesus."  Our thoughts are so powerful.  Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, strength and MIND.  It is important.  My thoughts are frustrating so many times.  I can feel that they are taking control of me.  Moving me not to the plan of the Lord but to my flesh.  Paul declared to take these thoughts captive and make them obedient.  This call comes right after saying we have the DIVINE power to demolish strongholds.  We have the power of Christ Jesus in us- therefore we have the power to take these thoughts captive to Christ!  I pray for that and I think about these things......

This is my prayer for me and YOU!  
We do not wage war as the world does- but we have the divine power to demolish the strongholds that our thoughts can many times put us in.  Demolish the strongholds- take the thoughts captive- and lets think about these things!!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Mama B

It's my birthday today :)!  Happy Birthday to me!!  But I think I told you before that Mama B and I share a birthday!  How fun is that! She is my best friend and we get to share the same birthday.  I mean it usually means one of us have to forfeit realllyyyy celebrating our birthday and all throughout my life it was usually her.  But now we get to be a little more even as I am older :)!!

I thought I would take today to tell  you a few reasons why I love Mama B (my mom :)!)

I love her because I know Jesus because of her
I love her because she shows me Jesus ALL the time
I love her because she has loved our family better than I could ever ask or imagine!
I love that she ran around the house like "elmer fud" when my Dad bought her a bb gun :)
I love her because she laughs loud and a lot
I love her because she often acts like a five year old child- in the funniest, best way possible.
I love that she is a phenomenally talented painter
I love that she taught me about art, crafts, sewing and finding beauty in things around you.  Which created my love for photography.
I love her because she wakes up at 5:30 every Wednesday morning to help serve breakfast for Young Life.
I love that she comes on photo shoots to make people laugh
I love that she is the funny one
I love her because she supports me in this ministry.
I love her because she puts up with a LOT of crap from me
I love her because she didn't call me crazy when I said I wanted to go on YL staff
I love that calls me a lot
I love her because she taught me my love for magazines :)
I love that she watches LOTS of movies with me
I love her because we are both late night people
I love her red hair
I love her fashion
The list could go on and on
But mostly I am grateful to her.  For loving me the way that she does, for loving all of my family the way that she does and for showing me how to walk with Jesus.  I love her because I saw her day after day growing up sit with Jesus, reading His word, doing her bible study and talking to Him.  She taught me how to love Jesus.

Love you Mama B!  There is no other person I would rather share a Birthday with!

Monday, February 4, 2013


"My life is not godliness but the process of becoming godly, not health but getting well, not being but becoming.  We are not now what we shall be, but we are on our way.  The process is not yet finished, but it is actively going on.  This is not the goal, but it is the right road.  At present everything does not gleam and sparkle, but everything is being cleansed"- Martin Luther
This quote was in my bible study a couple of weeks back.  I loved it.  Maybe because I love sparkle but also because I want to sparkle :)!  What girl doesn't.
I read a book last year called 66 Love Letters.  Larry Crabb writes the book about how each book of the bible, yes even Leviticus, is a love letter to our hearts.  I loved the book.  It is a great one.  
But one thing that spoke to my heart a lot as we read it was the fact that the Lord will do whatever it cost to make me more Holy.  His ultimate purpose is for me to be holy. 
"Momentary and light affliction will produce in us a glory that far outweighs them all"- 2 Corinthians 4:16-17
The same that this verse is speaking.  Jesus wants us to grow closer to Him.  To become more like Him.  And that isn't always easy.  Obviously Jesus love us more than we could EVER imagine and HATES and HURTS when we are in pain.  He doesn't want us in pain.  But He might use that pain to produce an eternal glory.  He might use it to put us in more of a position of His holiness.  
"At present everything does not gleam and sparkle (it isn't all flower and pretty and easy right now) but everything is being cleansed. (we are in the process of sparkling).

Cleansing isn't always easy.  It's like one of my favorite parts from Chronicles of Narnia- Voyage of the Dawn Treader- its long but so good.

"I won't tell yo how I became a -a dragon till I can tell the others and get it all over," said Eustace. "By the way, I didn't even know it was a dragon till I heard you all using the word when I turned up here the other morning. I want to tell you how I stopped being one."
"Fire ahead," said Edmund.
"Well last night I was more miserable than ever.  And that beastly arm-ring was hurting like anything---"
"Is that all right now?"
Eustace laughed- a different laugh from any Edmund had heard him give before--and slipped the bracelet easily off his arm.  "There it is," he said, "and anyone who likes can have it as far as I'm concerned.  Well as I say, I was lying awake and wondering what on earth would become of me.  And then-- but mind you, it may have been all a dream.  I don't know."
"Go on," said Edmund, with considerable patience.  "Well anyway, I looked up and saw the very last thing I expected: a huge lion coming slowly toward me.  And one queer thing was that there was no moon last night, but there was moonlight where the lion was.  So it came nearer and nearer.  I was terribly afraid of it.  You may think that, being a dragon, I could have knocked any lion easily enough.  But it wasn't that kind of fear.  I wasn't afraid of it eating me, I was just afraid of it-- if you can understand.  Well, it came close up to me and looked straight into my eyes. And I shut my eyes tight.  But that wasn't any good because it told me to follow it."
"You mean it spoke?"
"I don't know.  Now that you mention it, I don't think it did.  but it told me all the same.  And I knew I'd have to do what it told me, so I got up and followed it.  And it led me a long way into the mountains.  And there was always this moonlight over and round the lion wherever we went.  So at last we came to the top of a mountain I'd never seen before and on top of this mountain there was a garden---trees and fruit and everything.  In the middle of it there was a well.
"I knew it was a well because you could see the water bubbling up from the bottom of it: but it was bigger than most wells---like a very big, round bath with marble steps going down into it.  The water was as clear as anything and I thought if I could get in there and bathe it would ease the pain in my leg.  But the lion told me I must undress first.  Mind you, I don't know if he said any words out loud or not.
"I was going to say that I couldn't undress because I hadn't any clothes on when I suddenly thought that dragons are snaky sort of things and snakes can cast their skins.  Oh, of course, thought I, that's what the lion means.  So I started scratching myself and scales began coming off all over the place.  And then I scratched a little deeper and, instead of just scales coming off here and there, my whole skin started peeling off beautifully, like it does after and illness or as if I was a banana.  In a minute or two I just stepped out of it.  I could see it lying there beside me, looking rather nasty.  It was a most lovely feeling.  So I started to go down into the well for my bathe.  
"But just as I was going to put my feet into the water I looked down and saw that there were all hard and rough and wrinkled and scaly just as they had been before.  Oh, that's all right, said I, it only means I had another smaller suit on underneath the first one and I'll have to get out of it too.  So I scratched and tore again and this under skin peeled off beautifully and out I stepped and left it lying beside the other one and went down to the well to bath.
"Well exactly the same thing happened again.  And I thought to myself, oh dear, how ever many skins have I got to take off?  For I was longing to bathe my leg.  So I scratched away for the third time and got off a third skin, just like the two others, and stepped out of it.  but as soon as I looked at myself in the water I knew it had been no good.  
"Then the lion said-- but I don't know if it spoke-- 'You will have to let me undress you.' I was afraid of his claws, I can tell you, but I was pretty near desperate now.  So I just lay flat down on my back to let him do it.  
"The very first tear he made was so deep that I thought it had gone right into my heart.  And when he began pulling the skin off, it hurt worse than anything I've ever felt.   The only thing that made me able to bear it was just the pleasure of feeling the stuff peel off.  you know-- if you've ever picked a scab or a sore place.  It hurts like billy-oh but it is such fun to see it coming away."
"I know exactly what you mean," said Edmund.
"Well, he peeled the beastly stuff right off--just as I thought I'd done it myself the other three times, only they hadn't hurt-- and there it was lying on the grass: only ever so much thicker, and darker and more knobbly--looking than the others had been.  Then he caught hold of me--I didn't like that much for I was very tender underneath now that I'd no skin on--and threw me into the water.  It smarted like anything but only for a moment.  After that it became perfectly delicious and as soon as I started swimming and splashing I found that all the pain had gone from my arm.  And then I saw why.  I had turned boy again.  You'd think me simply phony if I told you how I felt about my own arms.  I know they've no muscle and are pretty mouldy compared with Caspian's, but I was so glad to see them.
"After a bit the lion took me out and dressed me---"
"Dressed you.  With his paws?"
"Well I don't exactly remember that bit.  But he did somehow or other: in new clothes --the same I've got on now, as a matter of fact.  And then suddenly I was back here.  Which is what makes me think it must have been a dream."
"No, it wasn't a dream," said Edmund.
"Why not?"
"Well, there are the clothes, for one thing.  And you have been---well, un-dragoned, for another."
"What do you think it was then?" asked Eustace.
"I think you've seen Aslan," said Edmund
---- Voyage of the Dawn Treader- C.S. Lewis

Jesus is cleansing us daily- he is making us more Holy.  Producing in us an eternal glory.  So that when we are with Him in our heavenly home we know Him differently and more than we did if we had not been cleansed.  If it hadn't hurt we would be at that place in our relationship with Him.  I love that.  And somehow it makes the difficultly of what we have to go through easier.  He has a purpose for our pains- He is making us Holy.  
He is making us sparkle!!

Friday, February 1, 2013


The superbowl is coming up!  Who are you pulling for?
Did I ever tell you I went to the superbowl last year?

yeah whoopsy.  Welp I did.

Daddy B and I got the TRIP of a lifetime to go to the Superbowl last year in Indiana.

Not only was it the superbowl- but the whole trip was the trip of a lifetime.

Here are some highlights.
Night 1- we got to go inside the stadium to watch Madonna rehearse the ENTIRE halftime show.  She is amazing!  She was so involved in the entire show- impressive!
We are Panthers fans so we had to take pics with the Panther things around :)!!

 Night 2-We went to the Indy 500 racetrack and got a tour of the entire building, food, drinks AND got to meet Troy Aikman and Michelle Beadle (ESPN anchor).
Day 3- We went downtown to all of the superbowl activities- basically walked around observed- all that good stuff.
Night 3- We went to the NFL VIP party- crazy!!  It was ice sculptures, chocolate covered strawberries (LOVE), andddd the Steven Tyler/Carrie Underwood concert, sitting in the VIP section!! WHATTT  it was crazy, I was amazed the entire night!

 Day 4- game day
I know you thought the trip couldn't have gotten any better.... but it did.  This day was the best.
We got a police escort to the game- whattttt.  And had this fabulous breakfast.  But then in walks.
wait for it..
notice the how I met your mother reference.... love that show
in walks.

Peyton Manning and Archie Manning
Favorite part.
They came and chatted and answered questions.
Very casual, very neat.
Then we got our picture taken with them.

LOOOOKKK how tall he is!!
THEN- we went to the NFL Tailgate- got some more yummy food.  Saw the Frey, Lenny Kravitz , JIMMY FALLON- love him and saw celebs walking around.  

 THENNNN... we went to the game.  We walk in and we are on the bottom section 40 yard line... dad and I are seriously amazed.  Jaws dropped.  Crazy.  WHATTTT.. thats all I said the whole trip.  Seriously.
The game was amazing.  Not only a great game- but the Giants won!!!.

Me and Daddy B..... love this pic!

Needless to say it was an amazing trip.  I felt so blessed to get to go to the superbowl but also to get to go with Daddy B.  I had the trip of a lifetime andddd got some great memories with my Dad!  I loved getting to go and I loved even more to go with my Dad!